Is it that
hard to be strong? I wonder…
Every day I
read like a thousand times and everywhere the same lines: “When you become weak
is because you’ve been strong for too long” or something like that and I wonder
how many of those people posting those lines everywhere really know about being
strong.
It’s so
tiring to be strong 365 days. But what
else to do when people around you need you to keep strong? What to do when you
look them in their eyes and are asking “be strong for me” ?
And you
breath deeply and decide to keep being strong again, one more second, one more
minute, one more day… And when you’re about to break, you recall that those
people around you need you. So you keep pretending.
So you draw
your smile while you comb your hair and you feel how every breath you take
burns inside, like fire. You open your mouth to kill a scream because you don’t
even have strength to scream and without realizing, you close yourself, like in
a shell.
So you
start lying to everyone around you, saying you’re ok and you learn to joke when
what you really want is to curl in your bed and forget that the world exists.
And when the sun rises, you put the “be strong” mask and just pray for someone
to realize that you’re crumbling and for once in your life, hope that someone
can be strong for you.